What is the meaning? It's you.

Once again, my social life has taken a plunge and I find myself more content to start at a computer screen and listen to music that I do finding myself with people; friends. I get so easily annoyed and irritated by people; I think it's because of the looming prospect of winter coming.

I find myself increasingly scared of people and harder to talk to, more easy to be irate, and I don't know why any of this is really happening.

I wander around my apartment by day, stuck in headphones, wandering through my mind wondering what is my meaning here; why am I still here?

I feel like a waste of money, a waste of space. I have thrown off friends because I can't seem to throw these antics or this mindset that I don't really feel like I have ever really belonged here, not so much here as in where I am, but here on planet earth. Some people call this mindset disturbed some people call it scary, but I just feel like I am the product of a cosmic screw up.